When I imagine the moment I arrive in Heaven, my mind paints a breathtaking picture of white fluffy clouds, a massive silver gate where angels greet each new arrival with a pleasant smile, streets lined with gorgeous houses with wrap around porches, and magnificent trees – which I’m sure are blooming with perfectly ripe avocados all year round! I smell the ocean breeze, obviously, and feel the warm sun on my face. I then realize that just as promised, my body is healed and whole! I walk without pain or exhaustion and experience no worry or fear! It is truly magical and stunning!
Shortly after arriving, I am given the opportunity to spend some much anticipated one-on-one time with my Savior. I anxiously await the time that I am able to thank Him for keeping His promise of healing and restoration; and there are, of course, some very important questions that I have carefully retained from my years here on earth.
First and foremost, it is imperative we finally get an answer to the ever-so-famous questions like “Did Adam have a belly button?” or “Why did You let mosquitoes on the ark?”- Don’t lie! You want to know too!
Though some questions are trivial and may seem silly, I also anticipate asking harder and more theological questions such as “How is it possible that Jesus was 100% God and 100% man?” “How was He always existent even before life was created?” “Can You explain the Trinity? PLEASE!” I will ask if He really cared as much about the insignificant details of legalistic Christianity that have been placed on religion. I am confident that His answer will be that He didn’t focus as much on if we had a drum set or wore a pair of jeans in church, as much as He was concerned about our hearts behind worship.
Though these are all questions that I imagine I will cover rather quickly, the question I can’t wait to ask is this- “Father, what did you see in my life that made You choose me to carry the burdens that You did?” I am curious to His answer. Will He reply that my faith needed to be grown and pruned into something beautiful; or did He choose me because He was convinced that, like Job, I would remain faithful until the end? Or was it because someone in my path needed to see me walk through a trial in order that their walk with God would be sparked or re-ignited?
I realize that I will not receive the answer to this question until I am face-to-face with my Savior; however, I wonder if I understood His reasoning in the present day, would I choose to live my life on earth differently?
Would I strive to live up to what it was that He saw in me? Would I accept my situation as I now realize that it was simply to make me a better version of myself? Or would I do a better job as a witness of God’s love, strength and power within me?
Since I have no way of getting a definitive answer prior to my transition to Heaven, I am choosing today to live out all of the above. I intend to live as though He looked down from His seat in Glory, picked me out from a crowd and said “Oh, I choose Emily because she won’t quit. She will give Me the praise and honor through it all!” I also want to walk this journey believing that my faith needed to be strengthened, my trust needed to be enhanced and my joy needed to be increased. Additionally, I want to be the best version of a Christ follower that I can, so that when others observe me they are observing an authentic endorsement of Christianity.
It has been said that “Your life may be the only Bible some people will read.” If that is the case, are they reading an accurate representation of what it says? This is convicting and should be at the fore-front of our minds and hearts daily.
So, until I reach Heaven’s gates and sit at the feet of my Father, and am given the opportunity to receive my much-desired answers, I will live as if I already know.
I challenge you, whatever your situation is that causes you to wonder why God chose you to carry it, live as if you already have the answer!